Today I really don’t feel like being creative.
I’m tired. I started a new job this week and have to get up very early to get there before the traffic starts in order to avoid a long commute. It was pitch black when I left for work this morning.
I already get up early to journal, so an earlier start with the new job is tough. It will take me a while to adapt to this.
So tonight when I got home, I had a hot shower, made myself a hot water bottle (it’s winter here!) and climbed into bed.
As much as I love being creative and using my time after work to do pages in my art journal, or create found poetry, or do any number of the ‘productive’ things that bring me joy – today I’m just too tired.
And that’s ok, too.
I think to myself, what would I say to a friend who told me that she was tired from starting a new job? I would say:
Just rest. Be gentle with yourself. Treat yourself kindly.
Often I think we pride ourselves on keeping busy – people rant about all the things they have to do as if to show how important they are because they are so busy. We associate busyness with importance, with meaning.
And we have come to associate rest, quiet and slowness with a sign that something is wrong.
But I think there is as much joy to be found in being gentle with ourselves, in resting, as there is with being productive.
It is in the quiet time, the time between the rushing and the doing, that we nurture ourselves. By choosing a book and a cup of tea curled up in bed instead of my art journal and paints tonight, I am listening to my body and giving it what it needs. I am refilling the well of creativity inside, so that I can be productive and creative another time.
It’s all about balance: you need to receive rest and nourishment so that you can create and share your gifts with the world.
Take time out to rest and nurture yourself this week.