Anais Nin famously said:
And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
I love this quote, so much. It is only recently that I have come to realise that it is too painful for me to remain tight in a bud – I am now taking the risk to blossom.
I think this quote means that we stay in our comfort zones, we deny our true feelings and we try to protect ourselves.
Since starting a regular journaling routine, I have come to realise that I can blossom – it isn’t as scary or dangerous as it seems. I have all the courage I need inside.
Here are a few of the ways I used to ‘remain tight in a bud’:
- Watching a lot of television
- Spending hours online
- Spending time with people I didn’t really care for, just so I wouldn’t have to be alone
- Overworking, becoming exhausted
- Denying that I had any control over my life
- Shopping aimlessly
- Dieting relentlessly
- Perfectionism and procrastination
But now that I’ve created an ongoing dialogue with my true, authentic self through my daily journaling routine, I am finding the courage to ‘blossom’ in these ways:
- Starting (and continuing) a creative practice
- Experimenting with different art supplies and techniques, such as acrylic paint, watercolour, mixed media, crayons, pencils, pens, etc
- Building a tiny house
- Starting my own creative business
- Acknowledging my deepest desires and daring to believe I can make them a reality
- Sharing my work, my thoughts and ideas with others
- Accepting myself as a flawed but deeply lovable human being
- Quitting dieting
These are just a few of the ways I have sought to change my life over the past 6 months. Looking back now it seems like I’ve made quite a few big changes – most of them are internal. Most of them are shifts in my sense of courage, of determination. the external changes have naturally flowed on from there.
I can’t say it enough: it is the simple act of journaling each day that has allowed me to get to this point. It is the ongoing conversation with my true self, with my inner wisdom and courage. It is being awake in my life, rather than numbing my feelings through the things in the first list above.
So I challenge you: in what ways do you attempt to remain tight in a bud, and how can you find the courage to blossom?